Changing My Mind, My Life.

Proverbs 14:12 KJV

There is a way which seemeth right unto a man, but the end thereof are the ways of death.”

I truly believe God is a God who is detailed and structure as He reveals and speaks to us. I believe we all agree when we say God always comes through at His timing, very timely. Throughout MCO I was listening to famous writer John Eldredge who wrote Wild at Heart. He and his wife Stacy share about agreements and interpretations of a situation, where I also learned about soul ties and breaking agreements. I would say, inviting God to come into my situation and ask for His wisdom have changed my life forever.

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We may think our thoughts and perspective are valid but how do we truly know unless we allow God to help us process the situation and thoughts? After all, it is written, our hearts are indeed deceitful.

We man can hide things from man, lay it hidden, but we know we can’t hide it from God.

Trust the Lord with all your heart, do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths – Proverbs 3:5-6

As I was reading and understanding it, God started to reveal the deepest part of my memories. Memories of me unable to read when I was younger. Being young, I do not know how to interpret the situation and it has caused me to believe what the enemy lied about me. That I am slower, not capable, etc. I believe all of us have these condemning words that come to our mind.

All these beliefs about myself have formed an agreement deep within me. Sure enough, it affects how I view myself, how I believe other people may view me. It affects, my whole life. Yes my dear family in Christ, what we believe about ourselves that doesn’t come from God, will cost our life. 

I remember I was struggling with my work situation. I was very triggered by the situation and all the memories about me not being good enough floods back to me. It crippled me. Thank God for discerning friends that never stop upholding me in prayers, a timely phone call pulls me back to God’s perspective. They helped me to identify the lie I have believed about myself and others. We came together to reject and break the agreement that is negative towards me, the situation, and also the people that are involved. We speak God’s words on myself and the situation. I chose to forgive and ask God for His perspective.

Almost immediately, I begin to see myself, other people, and the situation in a different light. I guess this is what it means by “I was blind but now I can see. I thank God for His grace upon me. I thank God for friends that never stop fighting for me. I just did what I could as Sara that God calls me to be. I will continue to love, listen, and also pray. By God’s Grace, I approached every situation and person with the best capacity, with God’s words in my heart and mind.

And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God – Romans 12:2

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Not long after, the same situation happened and even the same people are involved but I am not reacting as before anymore. I wasn’t confused and lost as before. Truly, God is able to transform us by first changing our minds that eventually will change our actions. Glory to God alone!!

By the end of August and also very recently, I was awarded Best collaboration and engagement and also rated as the highest performance analyst!! My team begins to see areas I am able to perform well and even assist others. Sometimes the gospel is simple, in the marketplace where there is no pulpit, how we serve others, and how we live by our principle with love is how others may see Jesus. At the same time, we pray for open doors to witness Jesus. Serve patiently as we wait! 

Sara is part of KAOG family for a long time now. She’s currently leading a very dynamic connect group namely The Remnants with Rebekah Siah. Singing ever so beautifully for the Lord in the bathroom and also in the worship team.