Testimony 2 – Michelle Tan

During this pandemic, a lot of us would need to work from home and study at home. For me personally, studying at home for a long-term period has become more straining. As I tend to research my studies, I spend a lot of time in front of my laptop as I’m usually unsatisfied if I cannot find what I needed. In addition to meetings, classes, and church, I spent even more time in front of gadgets.

One day, I started to feel pain in my shoulders and also having difficulty sleeping at night. I needed to stretch very often to relieve the tenseness of my muscles. I used to have the passion to watch dramas, write stories, talk to my peers, and more, but I started to do things just for the sake of doing them, losing my passions and started to feel numb. I realized what I needed during these times was rest.

In the same way, there is only one thing that could satisfy our souls, it’s Jesus. Just one touch from Him, restoration takes place. I felt the Holy Spirit’s nudge whenever I was about to “overwork” myself, and His voice that calls me to “lay my burden down upon Him”.

As I switched on my Youtube to search for a worship song, I saw a video in my “Recommendation” list that says our phones and gadgets can be a foothold for the devil. It’s so easy for the devil to manipulate me during these times when I felt weary. And I realized all of these that I experienced was also an effect of the amount of screen time. I also read an article that the high usage of gadgets was also associated with depression. This struck me hard as I know this isn’t what God wanted for me.

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Despite the workload I have on hand, I decided to stay still for a moment and allow myself to immerse in God’s presence. As I surrendered, I felt that the burden was lifted and I could finally rest well. God reminded me that His yoke is easy and His burden is light, and I don’t need to strive so hard. When we sow time into the presence of God, we will reap time. When God invites us to lean into His presence to rest, then rest; He too rested on the seventh day. I’m really thankful for His reminder to rest, and His healing power that restored me, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

Hi I’m Michelle! I’m 19 and currently pursuing a degree in Psychology. I grew up in a Buddhist family and accepted Christ 5 years ago. I started to encounter Him more and more throughout the years and He never ceases to amaze me daily.